December 19, 2006

This is probably The Week

Posting here will likely be alternately sparse and unbearably maudlin for the next little while. Your patience is appreciated.

He gave me three extra months. I wasn’t ready for him to go in late September, and he rallied and gave me three more months of morning walks and late-night company. But there are limits even to what Zeke can accomplish.

Man, the next week is gonna suck.

Distracting myself with anecdotes: Zeke never displayed even a speck of food aggression: a toddler could shove him away from a prime rib and he’d just wiggle his eyebrows in a perplexed manner. But he did have food jealousy. Even if he wasn’t hungry, even just mentioning another dog’s name could get him to gobble up whatever dog treat he had been reluctant to eat.

Of course, I blame Nader.

Cody Nader, that is. Cody was a sweet I think lab mix puppy belonging to Jeanne Nader, a local environmental activist (and the daughter of Ralph’s sister Laura) who had an office in the Ecology Center building for a year or so when I first worked there. Cody and Zeke were pals, sort of, but Cody would come into the Ecology Center when Zeke was there and snuffle around for anything Zeke might have brought with him to gnaw on: biscuits, jerky treats, cow hooves, whatever. At first, Zeke would stand by and watch helplessly as Cody devoured his stuff. Then he realized he could eat his snacks preëmptively whenever he saw Cody. Cody would walk in and Zeke would run to his stash and snarf it all up.

For the first seven years of Zeke’s life we lived in an apartment in Oakland downstairs from a woman who collected dogs. When we moved into the place she had two. When we moved out she had five. If I wanted Zeke to eat something, all I had to do was pretend to call Smiley or Brandy or Buddy or Jack or whoever to come get the treat. Zeke would run over to it right away and eat it.

Even after we moved out of that place — remind me to tell you sometime about the stream of week-old dog urine coming through the ceiling from Jill’s apartment upstairs and landing on our dish drainer — into a place with fewer neighborhood dogs, Zeke could still be manipulated that way. After a while, I didn’t even need to name a specific dog. Zeke came with us to the car hospital once and the owner, Paul, offered him a biscuit, which Zeke took politely — he always did — and then dropped a discreet distance away. I called out in a singsong voice. ”Other dog! Come get the treat!” and Zeke leapt on the biscuit like he hadn’t eaten for days.

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All my best in the next few days.

Let me know if there’s anything I can help with.

My heart and thoughts are with you....

Hank, there is something yoou can do: you can fend off anyone who comes in here and mentions either the Rainbow Bridge or getting another dog.

When Max’s legs were failing him, he was often very reluctant to go out for a walk. One almost surefire way to get his enthusiasm level up was to mention one or more of his pals. “Hey Max, wanna see Dixie?”. Or Jesse, one of the two Dudes, etc. Ears and head up immediately.

Be as sparse or maudlin as your spirit dictates, Chris. We ain’t goin’ nowhere.

R**nbow B**dge? You mean the one leading to Asgard?

Rainbow Bridge?  Isn’t that a movie, in which surf buddies (where is David these days?) rip open their boards to get at the opiated kief???  And then that guy played amazing guitar all through it too.  Or was it in the other movie, with that weird, twisted girl/woman, who wears red high heels and keeps clicking them, wanting to go home with her dog??? 

Oh, it isn’t a movie at all; it is that amazing and most spectacular physical feature in Utah, one of others, but huge and grand in scale and scope.  Nature provides the very best of realities when moments and memories come crashing together in our minds.  Utah, the Canyonlands, the rivers, the great basin, the upper Sonoran, all those pieces of you that compose much of what is your home on this earth, they are the rainbow bridge.

I’ll be thinking of you.

What GREAT STORY ABOUT ZEKE oops sorry about thr caps

He is even more real to me now

Take care, Chris. Zeke and you are in my thoughts.

Thank you for sharing Zeke with us, Chris.

There’s nothing to say.  My heart goes out to both of you.

Hey Chris,

Life, all of it, is so full of wonder.  Thanks for sharing Zeke with us, all of it.  I’ll be thinking of both of you and your incredible friendship.  Take care.

another excellent zeke story.  thinking of you all this week.

My heart is with you guys, all of you.

Chris, you still manage to make me laugh even now.  One of my dogs is finicky & fickle and will turn down a new treat until I offer it to the other dog.  Only then does she show any interest.  Lots of love and peace to you, buddy.  And peace to you, too Chris & Becky as you go through this.

I have to stop reading your blog at work.  People are going to think I’m having a breakdown, what with the frequent tearfulness.

My heart is with you.  Peace, or whatever you can find of it this week.

I want to thank you Chris.  I have a dog, Indy, who is now 10.5.  He’s been a wonderful dog, but for most of his life, he’s been been low on the totem pole, particularly after having two kids with autism.

Your love for Zeke has made me appreciate Indy all the more, and I’ve taken to spending a lot more time with him.  We go for more walks, I make sure I talk to and pet him more.  He’s no longer overlooked.  His time with us is now limited (due to his age) and I want to make up for the years of benign neglect.

I love my dog.  Thank you for helping me stop take him for granted.

And a good journey for Zeke.

For the record, Zeke is my favorite dog ever… and I say this as a card-carrying “cat person.”

Ah ... dang. I’m sorry. This isn’t easy, so say (or don’t) whatever you feel like saying (or not)—you’ve got my ear and my sympathy.

Thank you for sharing him with us.

I watched the video, and I love the way his tail flops when he walks. It is strangely endearing how dogs hold their tails. The fluffy tailed dogs seem to have more pride - they hold it out straight and the fur flows so elegantly.

He is so beautiful, and so lucky.

Thinking of you and Zeke. From my point of view, the law of conservation of energy means that the Energy that is Zeke will continue even after he’s done with the body that currently holds that energy.  The form changes, but the love lingers.

Peace to your family.

Words fail.  Our thoughts are with you and that good dog.

Sparse and unbearably maudlin is totally OK.  Will be thinking of you

Also thinking of you, also wishing ease and kindness to all of you.

Even though we can’t possibly love Zeke as much as you do, know that we out here love him as much as we can. Thank you both for the gift of your stellar relationship.

Love you Zeke.

Bless you Chris.

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